| All in a Day's Work |
[Feb. 15th, 2006|05:32 pm] |
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| | Makin' Out Like Bandits-Secretary | ] |
wow. it's been a while. but i really don't care.
My Valentine's Day was AMAZING!!
My boyfriend is amazing.
You want to know what i got??? yeah, i'm gonna tell you anyway...
*Heart-shaped balloon that says "I love you", with a 'stuffed with beans' turtle weighing it down.
*A Baker's dozen of light pink roses with a little balloon saying 'i love you' or something. AND it was in an adorable little vase with hearts on it.
*Scrapbook for us to put ourselves in. and a 'vacation' one for when we go to Cali. next summer.
*3 bears-pink, purple, and a little tourquoise one---all 3 of my favorite colors. They are sitting in a little basket with cut out hearts.
*there was a sucker with a little tag that says "I'm so happy with you."
*Dinner at Olive Garden.
After dinner we went shopping at SUPER walmart. It's what we do.
School is more lame (lamer) than ever.
I have gym.
I hate gym.
Tonight= sleep and Project Runway.
Then something fun later.
my friends should call me sometime.And maybe i won't be a bitch and actually hang out. :) !
<3 |
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[Nov. 30th, 2005|06:15 pm] |
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| | underoath | ] |
my teddy-bear hamster died.
i'm so upset. fer real.
i think it dehydrated.
gary and i suck.
it's all our fault.
hmmmm...
i need to get more sleep. |
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| neat. |
[Nov. 23rd, 2005|05:07 pm] |
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| |  fine | ] |
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| | 12 gauge valentine ... ... | ] |
my parents and i had a huge discussion about graduating early. my dad was very pissed off. my mom was more understanding, though. so much money has already been spent on seven & senators to quit at semester. i suppose. but high school is sooo pointless for me right now. i have all my credits and everything.
so that's all fine and dandy, right? well my mom figured out that since i want to graduate at the semester and work more, that i must want to move out. yeah, well, she's right. There started a whole new argument. This was major. lots and lots and lots of yelling. My dad was trying to tell me that i will regret it and things. If i was moving in with a girlfriend, they wouldn't have such a fit about it. "It's immoral to live with a guy before you are married." "you aren't a real Christian." okay. cool.
man, that sucked a lot. i love my mom and i feel bad but i love my boyfriend, too. i/they have a while so whatever. i just want to work more. i neeed to work more. it's not so easy when you have to go to high school.
i just saw a spider crawling on the floor in my perifrial vision. neat.
i love my sisterly! |
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[Nov. 12th, 2005|02:18 pm] |
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| |  loved | ] |
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| | matchbook romance | ] |
last night was pretty okay. i hung out at the mourning after's band practice and fell asleep eventually. that's silly.
then gary and i hung out at his momma's house.
we went to jared's after that. i am so pathetic: jerry and steve tracy started talking about Christian's and making fun of God and things of that sort. it made me REALLY upset. and of course, i was drunk so i was being really irrational about it. now jerry thinks i hate him. kinda. haha o well
i'm really glad my boyfriend cares more about my feelings.
we went home after that and it was funnn.
the end.
thanks for my sister being the best sister and bringing my glasses to me so i could drive home safely. haha i slept a lot today.
tonight= show at breadstretchers. yay mourning after.
this long weekend will be missed. :( so sad.
back to school and early nights. |
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| ridiculous |
[Nov. 8th, 2005|09:49 pm] |
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| |  upset | ] |
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| | haste the day | ] |
i'm so fucking stupid. i spend too much money on things.
things that i really shouldn't be spending my money on.
like fucking clothes and shoes.
i need to save my money so i can move out and be able to afford everything on my own when i turn 18.
it's a while away (march) but it still matters now.
i hate myself so much.
i'm so compulsive, too. that money was supposed to last me all weekend. fuck me!
otherwise...i think i'm sneaking out again tonight. to be with gary.
i think there is a gathering somewhere. i have no money for alcohol if so. what a loser.
whatever. i'm done.
oops, lame posts. |
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| this is television, late night television |
[Nov. 2nd, 2005|06:52 pm] |
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| |  cold | ] |
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| | head automatica | ] |
i've been reading things online for like an hour now. what a loser.
it makes me angry, reading what people say. i'm not sure exactly who i'm talking about, but it's all the same.
whatever.
i have a choir concert tomorrow night. 7 and senators suck this year. no one knows how to fucking blend and one of the reasons is because there are so many kids in it. it pisses me off.
last weekend was neat. i think i had a good time.
the halloween party at evan's makes me laugh.
AHAHAHA...robbie is hilarious.
i have to read The Once and Future King. ooh it makes me so angry.
i can't ever read anymore or do anything for that matter without falling asleep or thinking about lots of different things.
lame.
"Im so angry bleh bleh bleh."
that is me ^.
haha
i look cute in boxers. |
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| lets get wasted lets get wasted |
[Oct. 26th, 2005|05:12 pm] |
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| | Mixxxxx from Lauren! | ] |
okay...
HobGob. is sooon. if it isn't fantastic and fun i will cry!
i know hobgob itself will be fantastic but afterwards might be weird.
too many clashing parties and people.
fuck that.
i'm not sure why i get in these moods.
maybe a healthier lifestyle would make me feel better.
hmmm. haha
school is school.
home is home.
and everything else is still the same.
cool, right?
i need more from you.
i want my own apartment.
i want to be 18 already!!!! |
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| whoooaa, waiting for the breakdown |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|10:38 pm] |
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| |  moody | ] |
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| | mae | ] |
i haven't felt very well in like 3 weeks.
it's either my head, my neck, my feelings, my crying.
wait, this isn't making sense.
you get my drift.
i'm worried a lot, too. too much worrying.
i'm just in such a weird mood.
all i ever want to do is lay around with gary. but at the same time i want to always be doing something. i get bored easily and my life used to be so fast-paced. and now it's just so blah.
i want him to be happier. i want me to be happier. happier isn't really the word i'm looking for, for either of us, but it's all i can think of.
friends and boyfriends do weird things to you.
ryan made me cry tonight on the phone...wow...been a long time since that has happened. but it's not really for the same reasons it always was. it was different this time.
i'm scared...everything is changing and everyone is growing up. it should be a good thing though, right??
anywho... i got my hair to look pretty again!! it looked awful for a week, i got it all bleached out. yay!
i have been at church like all day..and sang a lot. i made gary come, it was cute.
lorn makes me smile a lot!! ♥
i haven't talked to erika all weekend :(
oh, this was silly. |
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| tell me, how am i going to make this right? |
[Sep. 25th, 2005|12:03 am] |
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| |  whatever. FUCK YOU. | ] |
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| | plumb | ] |
this is me, alone in my insecurity.
i feel sick, bloated, numb.
i came home after work at 9:00, changed into boxers and a hoodie, then went to the store and bought vegetable soup. i ate too much of it and now i want to throw up. serious. i feel so lonely. i told my parents i would stay home and do my homework tonight. to make them happy. which only leads to making me sad and lonely. OF COURSE. if only i wasn't so dependent on someone. someones, something. thing.
i havent even started on my homework yet. it's only 12:00am. i am watching a movie called Donnie Brasco. my boyfriend was supposed to call me or something. he's probably drunk by now.
i painted my nails a pretty purple tonight.
The show sounds really rockin tomorrow. Probably my three favorite local bands are playing: PARK, The Red Dress, and The Mourning After. yay
i have church in the morning.
i'm glad i got to get drunk with my lolo last night!
night kids |
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| what's the plan for tonight.. |
[Sep. 19th, 2005|09:42 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
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| | The Red Dress | ] |
attachment is never very fun.
you know what i mean.
i miss summer lots. i was reading one of eric's posts and it reminded me of that. it WAS irresponsible and fun. it seemed all so exciting, too. i like the times where everything was new.
i like the times of erika and i in 2004 all excited about EVERYTHING.
i miss summer of '02.
but i like right now, also.
i just hate school and...my hair.
hah...
i have an ass load of homework to do tonight.
i wish my parents weren't CONSTANTLY talking to me/complaining at me.
i got a teddy bear hamster!!! you should all be very jealous because it's extremely adorable! gary's momma gave it to me, she didn't want it. how silly. |
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| There's Beauty in the Breakdown. |
[Sep. 12th, 2005|10:09 pm] |
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| | hurting | ] |
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| | frou frou | ] |
i'm falling apart.
'things fall apart.'
i cry for the dumbest reasons.
i wish i wasn't sick.
i did have yummy taco bell tonight, though.
i love stryper, the kitty. |
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| "As a faggot i have found it easier to get sex on the streets than a hug in the church." |
[Sep. 10th, 2005|11:01 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | best. of. winter. | ] |
Today was full of work. It felt like forever. I did buy a book, though. It's called, "What's so Amazing About Grace?" Yes, i work in a Christian bookstore. The line from my subject is in it. It really is an awesome book.
After school yesterday, i hung out with Miss Lauren! we hung out at her house then went to Mcdonalds. We went to Penny Lane and i bought a cute Betty Boop shirt. wooyeah
I ate subway with my 'rents then slept for a couple hours. I arrived at the Midnight Fall show later and that was pretty neat. I like best of winter.
Yesterday morning i arrived at the apt. before school and Gary and Nataley were STILL awake. weirrdd kids. they were playing trivial pursuit. kinda.
Gary is coming over in like 2 hours i think. I've missed out on good shows in other cities this weekend.
Tomorrow= work and nothing really. Then we have another week of school. :(
I'm doing my homework right now. lame. |
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| I am Hollywood |
[Sep. 5th, 2005|02:18 pm] |
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| | matchbook romance | ] |
my feet are so very dirty. i love camping in litchfield. we went to the beach and that was awesome, well, because, i love beaches. i ate a lot of junk food. wooo corky's face was all puffy this morning, and i'm not sure why. who else was there? : lorn, alex, cheryl, dave, nick, corky, kai, jessica. anna stopped by one day, joey stopped by one day and dan stopped by for a while. yay! lorn and i slept with bees this morning. that's cool....
so school will be better now hopefully. i switched my physiology class for pottery. with T!!! i love her.
i hope this fall is really pretty.
i'm trying to cut down on smoking cigarettes. go me. |
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[Aug. 30th, 2005|05:25 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | Rise Against | ] |
school day number two is over. wooo
yesterday i was going to be an alto this year and it made me very angry. it made me want to quit it all together. BUT! today my choir teacher told me i'm going to sing soprano!! it makes me very happy!
i heart my sociology class a lot. mr. wharton makes it really fun.
music theory is going to be difficult.
physiology sounds okay.
literature is dumb dumb dumb.
econ with mr. myers!!!!! :)
i see alice a lot during the day!!
i like my lunch. i love food! i eat way too much for my own good.
my summer was very interesting, i think it comes in second place, after summer of '02. i liked this summer lots.
i like my boyfriend lots.
today i was told that i'm a very fun girl. i think it's because i make silly noises.....or something. you know.
i already fell asleep in one class. that's literature for ya.
i think i have to eat dinner now. and see my boo later. ;) yay
bye, kids. |
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| wondering wondering |
[Aug. 15th, 2005|12:32 am] |
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| | dashboard confessional | ] |
how DO you spell worshipping? is it worshipping or worshiping?! i guess the ladder (latter) is wrong.
i went to the fair with my boo tonight. it was actually quite entertaining. better than sitting around the a-p-t. fer sure. there was a very cute irish band that we watched and i really did enjoy it. silly! also, i heard my song- brown-eyed girl...i danced a lot and spun around. gary makes me so happy. man! he makes me laugh wayyyyy too hard sometimes. it's ridiculous! i walked all over the north end and it scared me a lot. i'm so 'west side', it's not even funny. "welcome to the north end baby!"
there is nothing to do anymore, noone does anything. you know what i mean?? it's all over.
i'm ready for school for only ONE reason- so i can sing a lot in 7 and senators and run those bitches. oh hell, it will be crazy.
i guess i want more, i want new-ness. but it's a little hard. school is almost here...blehhhh.
i coughed up blood this morning. that's reallly not good. i suck at having sinus infections. or at least i hope that's why there was blood. otherwise, i'm just dying and exploding.
i love the jansen's! i always fucking say that but it's the fucking truth!
i love manda and erika just cuz! you know why!!
the mourning after has tee-shirts now!!! get ahold of someone and get one fast! hehe serious.
i work work work, but not enough. i just got a new car! woooo...it's a honda accord 1996. i like it. the whole money thing sucks, though. my sisterly and i are fucking car twins! (like you said, joey<3)
man...college is always being brought up and it pretty much bothers me. i just don't want to fucking talk about it all the time.
I've been having some pretty silly dreams lately. i sleep at weird times and sometimes sleep too much. my life gets all mixed in with my dreams. i'm so confused. ha...
uh-oh im getting overwhelmed.
i love you i love you i love you |
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| You all know what this is a reply to: |
[Aug. 2nd, 2005|08:02 pm] |
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| | frou frou | ] |
01. EVERYTHING. (ha!) I love all your little hand motions, your laugh, your eyes... I love how you're the sweetest, most beautiful, wonderful thing on the whole damn planet. Oh! I like you you freak out/bust out laughin' 'n such when I fall on you!! (haha)
02. Youza Ho by Ludacris, (hahaha) Crusin' Together by Gwyneth Paltrow & Huey Lewis, Say Good Night, Not Goodbye by Beth Neilson Chapman, Under the Sun by Sugar Ray. (gawd, there are so many more) Hm, movie? Definitely White Oleander and The New Guy because that's the first movie we all saw together. (awwww) Icon? TWIGGY! (haha)
03. 4pm because that's when we used to pick you up from work.. that's when all the fun began. (aw YAY)
04. Inspirational.
05. Summer of 2002... ! (you so knew that one)
06. Turtle!
Lorn! it only showed that much, sorry, don't hate me, hate my computer. |
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| i fit right in your perfect skin... |
[Jul. 30th, 2005|01:58 pm] |
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| | some New Age song | ] |
i'm in the tiny tiny tiny town of eldora, iowa. how cute. i love my aunt and uncle. my aunt just highlighted my hair and it went crazy. it has hints of pink on the real blonde pieces which really really really makes me sad. they will wash out in like 2 hair washings i hope. otherwise, it looks pretty okay mixed with my black and other 100 colors that are already in my hair. you know what i mean.
this town is soooo farm-y. ahhh i'm dying. my phone is roaming and will be until about tuesday.
i am happy with my boyfriend right now. he makes me smile a lot. good, right? he makes time for me which i need. i guess i don't mean 'makes time' but 'gives me attention'. hahaa
i love my friends... and i think it's cute with Chevitz and you know...;)
i come home tuesday and have work and things. i need to call some people and hang out with people. friday might be fun...??!!? and saturday is that one show. hah, i'm not sure who's playing...why don't i know?...The Mourning After is, i know. You should come.
I really have no new news. i did when i came home from camp but that was over a week ago.
i need a nap. |
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| you'll adore me before the night is over |
[Jul. 15th, 2005|12:31 pm] |
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| | hidden in plain view | ] |
HAPPY BIRRRRTHDAY MISS AMANDA FIELD!!!!!<3
well, fuck.
i have spent the last 3 hours trying to sleep because there is nothing else to do and i felt very lazy. BUT there are men with hankerchiefs on their heads sawing (or whatever) down the tree right outside my bedroom window. so now it's gone. *tear* no, it didn't matter to me much, anyway.
yesterday was the worst hangover i have ever had. fuck fortys. ha, oh whatever. i'm exaggerating.
(that's what i do.)
last night lauren and manda came over and we wathced 'Bridget Jones, The Edge of Reason.' it was cute but eventually i fell asleep and lauren left. :( i am a horrible host!!!
lauren is going to the 'chatham sweet corn festival' with me today. wooooo i think i might call stephie and see if she wants to go!
The Mourning After is playing at Velie's tonight. If you are 21 or over, you can go. haha, wait, i don't think any of you are.
i am leaving monday morning, bitches. i won't be home 'til saturday. i'm not sure how i feel about all that.
Berry Burst Cheerios are delicious!! |
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| sparklyyyy |
[Jul. 10th, 2005|05:17 pm] |
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| | better than chocolate | ] |
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| | blink 182 | ] |
i smell like coconuts and dead skin. you know what that means.
today has consisted of: church, brunch with my rents and sisterly, then me going to gary's apt. the apt. was asleep and contently boring. i liked it. i then went to rent a movie, and now i am waiting for dinner.
last night, i made a shirt. i was in an artsy mood. ha
lauren better call me, none of this phone tag business. hehe
this week is going to be working everyday at some point or another. and still no car. but i will work on that this week, too.
i procrastinate like whoa.
i won't be able to make like any of the upcoming shows. boohoo...i'm going to leadership lab from the 18th to the 23rd. i'm sorry you'll miss me so much.
i heart my boyfriend.
yay manda calling! |
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| i just want one more chance to put my arms in fragile hands |
[Jul. 8th, 2005|05:48 pm] |
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| | totally hyper.then okay. | ] |
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| | anberlin | ] |
a new post.
that's what this is.
i watched white oleander with my boyfriend last night. and fell asleep. of course.
i saw manda and erika at work. yayy
you are horrible girls...haha jk
the show at 217 is tonight, i guess i will show up, or something. but, i don't know if i'm really in a show mood.
i'm funna hang out with lorn this evening [!!!!]
heather and i did our hair with black last night. ahhhhhhh my hair is cute, but looks better up until i get little streaks in the back. or something.
sunday= me singing at st. john's lutheran church. yay, they asked me to sing in their praise choir!
my parents don't like my hair. or me staying out at night. i'm really not doing anything bad.
i work 1-9 saturday. fun.
i think you should stop telling me i'm fucking everything up and that i'm dumb. i don't like hearing that, it's pretty much making me sad. way to go. (i know you're reading this.)
i guess this post is pointless. seriously.
'A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion' |
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